Sunday, March 6, 2011

Ok.....Her We Go

So very sorry about the delay...I have had quite a bit to transpire. In the first post I told you alot... but I left out some pertinent information that I feel will be worth knowing on the front end.

For the past 6 years I have been going through what some would call the "valley" experience. Bad career moves, even worse relationships, you know one of those "living in the moment" type of existences.....The feeling of needing to get out of the water but the more you swam... keep going farther and farther out......

Drowning myself in relationships left me exhausted and aged! It was a complete waste of time. I had always had some sense of God and it was bewildering to me that I couldn't get this spiritual thing on track. I was the kid that was at all the church programs, and i knew God was/is a place of peace. Now one would think with all this working knowledge that i would know that my living WAS in vain as long as I was out of the will of GOD.
So I said all this to say......When God is knocking at your heart...that's his gentle way of saying "Come know Ive been trying to get your attention......what I gotta do my child?" The word tells us that the wages of sin is death.....not just as in 6 feet under....but a more profound death can be ones spiritual connection to the Most High.... In a world where people are dropping dead with no chance of salvation we should be thankful that he affords us the opportunity to live, breath, talk, and walk. 

Please don't get the impression that I feel punished because I have MS.....I honestly worked through that emotion very quickly with the help of the Holy Spirit.
Romans 8:1-2
1 Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, 2 because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you[a] free from the law of sin and death.

.....but what I do know that God does gives us warnings about things....not hending to those warnings can have severe consequences.

Jeremiah 44:4-6
 4 Again and again I sent my servants the prophets, who said, ‘Do not do this detestable thing that I hate!’ 5 But they did not listen or pay attention; they did not turn from their wickedness or stop burning incense to other gods. 6 Therefore, my fierce anger was poured out; it raged against the towns of Judah and the streets of Jerusalem and made them the desolate ruins they are today.

I don't care what your religious preference is....know one wants to be a desolate place of no growth and prosperity....Sometimes God will put you in a place that is dark and desolate....

John 1:44 In him was life, and that life was the Light of all mankind.

Iam so glad that in a world of darkness....the LIGHT unapologetically intervenes on our behalf.

So I'm sure according to my first post you were like..."here we go....another crusader for a cause"....But this blog is not necessarily about discussing a disease....This blog will be one of healing and encouragement.....If you want stats and diagrams about MS.....this may not be for you.....As in most diseases there is more money in treating than it is in curing, the bureaucracy  is not worth the energy..... Mental well-being is the key to fighting anything!! Christ will renew(keep) our minds each day as our focus be not on conquering a disease...but being a conquerer through Jesus Christ.

Romans 8:37-39
37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[k] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

I want someone to read this blog and see the WONder working power of Christ, and the power of his word....

I prayed this prayer in 2008:
"Lord I know I have been a mess.....but if it be your will...bring me to the foot of your throne......all i ask is that you don't embarrass me and don't kill me.....but bring me to you"

So you see....I don't look at MS as a Death wish, (as I did) or even some disabling beast.....through therapy, diet, exercise, and of course my faith in the Lord I will have peace on this journey...I look at it as HIM saving me....and answering a prayer at the same time.


  1. When I was first diagnosed the doctor kept saying, "But African-Americans don't get this disease (MS)! I wanted to shake him and say, "Get over it!" What do we do now?


  2. Hello my Sista...May God Bless and guide you through your journey. Before MS and, even after dx, I had been in the Church but not spiritual(ya know). I made many wrong turns running away from MS. The Lord made me turn and face it in March of 09. After a major flare, I now need a walker and my balance is impaired. Other problems too. (you know the drill) The good news is that I HEARD GOD and knew (for the first time)what I needed to do. I pray that you will receive the guidance you seek...knowingly or unknowingly. Peace Helen

  3. Thank you for your honesty. As a fellow believer and MS 'sufferer' I can relate to what you are saying. God is faithful and with us in all things, and I believe I am stronger now than before. I wouldn't chose this, but I know that we are not alone and we can still do great things. God bless, Alison